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Wednesday, November 27, 2019
Wednesday, December 7, 2016
Johannes Ibubesi
There it
was!
Nervously I handed the baker my dime and held my hands open to receive my
treasure. Quickly I left the store, afraid to answer any questions he might
have asked. Of course it was all in my mind, the baker just made another dime.
On the way home I opened my prized possession and ate the tasteless candy that
was inside the transparent toy submarine hull. That had been the object of my
desire ever since I spotted it a few days before in the bakery window close to
my school.
That morning
when as usual a row of coins were laying on the edge of the breakfast table for
me and my siblings, I had picked up my dime, which was destined to go into the
collection box, that always was passed around during the first hour of class.
That time was set aside to learn about the foreign missions, supported by our
school and our church. Each week stories
about the missionaries captivated my imagination and often I dreamed away
thinking about all the adventures of these men, invariably dressed in white
suits and tropical helmets. Stories of mass conversions where dozens were
baptized with a garden hose came to mind. I don’t know where some of these crazy stories came from but I still remember them. Maybe it was the teacher who was
fired up by zeal for the Lord, who knows.
My father
was an avid supporter of mission work and believed in the sending of
Christian teachers to not only teach the Gospel but to provide solid education
in reading writing and math. His church was strong in that area! So supporting
the mission and teaching his own children to give faithfully every week was
part of our upbringing.
With a lump
in my throat I had lied to the teacher that my father had forgotten to give us
money that morning, and luckily he had moved on to the next person with the
collection box. I am sure that my face would have given the truth away had he
probed.
Now I was on
my way home and hid the toy in my pocket before I got into the house.
Once inside I quickly brought it to my room and made plans to try it out that night. We
had a full size bath tub in the bathroom where normally once every week all the
children were bathed in rows of two or three next to each other. I hated bath
time because my parents believed in cold rinses after we had been washed with
hot water. I hated it! Imagine how surprised my mother was when I announced
that night that I would like to take a bath. I smuggled the sub into the
bathroom and got all into playing with it, when all of a sudden my mom knocked
on the door. Quickly I hid the toy behind my back when she entered. When she
asked what I had there I answered “Nothing” but I knew I was in trouble. She
then asked me to show the “nothing” and I ended up confessing in one breath! Like
always when I had done something bad she was not angry but very saddened that I
had done such a low thing with my mission money. My mom was good at guilt
trips! I was determined never to sin like that again. What did I know about the
seed that was just planted in my heart?
Fifty-two
years later!
Sitting in
the airplane on our second leg to Port au Prince Haiti, I sat next to the
newest member of our Matthew Twenty Eight team, who for the first time in his
life went on a mission trip. Richard who was born in raised in Cameroon turned
out to be a very pleasant man and we bonded instantly. I shared with him that I
had been in Cameroon 23 years before to work on a mission hospital in the rain
forest! We had plenty to talk about and then the conversation came to my early
years in school and the stories I remembered from those days. About a book that I
read then of a boy in a missionary school ,named Johannes Ibubesi, that was still
stuck in my mind. I told Richard how important mission education had been to
my father in those days. With wet eyes Richard looked at me and said "I
was in mission school with a Dutch teacher who taught me all the basics that
put me ahead of the crowd in Cameroon". “Without that man I would have
never made it out of Cameroon and into the world”. “Your Father was right, he
did a great thing for me”! Now it was my time to tear up and I realized that my
submarine had come to circle the globe! I had just found the “Johannes Ibubesi”
from my book! God’s ways are wonderful!
Monday, January 25, 2016
Angels?
Violent protests in Haiti related to the alleged fraud in the election process of the new president.
It was not until I sat down in the airplane that was about
to leave Haiti’s tumultuous capital, Port-au-Prince, that my mind started to
put the happenings of yesterday into perspective. The wonderful team that was
with me had worked hard on a slew of projects and most all had been finished by
Thursday night. During the week I had kept an eye on the reports of
manifestations and violence in relation to the election that popped up all over
the country. Our area as usual had nothing to worry; people just went about
their business to survive from day to day. I felt that keeping the news away
from the team was warranted. After all we could not change anything and it
might have made some of them very nervous. Thursday night it became clear that
the route we were planning to take the next day was going to be impassable because
of protests. Several vehicles traveling on route national #3 in Thomonde
had been set on fire and that was something we could not risk. Early Friday I
called a friend who is a commander in the Haitian police force and
discussed a plan for getting to Port-au-Prince. Our route was going to take us
North, through the mountains and close to Gonaives so Lala and Youvendjy who
had been with us, could be dropped off. After that we would drive south on the
#1 along the coast and head for Port.
During the day I kept getting information about the possible trouble
spots, but we did real well and had smooth sailings until late in the afternoon
we received a warning about a town just ahead of us called Saint Medard, where
supposedly a protest was getting out of control. I told everyone that it could become a little
tense and to better say a prayer. When we approached the town it was clear that
something was going on. People everywhere along the road seemed to look or wait
for trouble to happen. Traffic was slowing down and all of a sudden two guys
jumped on the back of our van. They stood on the bumper holding the rooftop
rack. One of them was dressed entirely in white, the other in red. Initially Jeff,
our driver, let them be but after we came to a stop he went outside to ask them
what they wanted. He acted very timid and clearly afraid of what might happen.
When he came back in he just said they were obviously locals and said they
wanted to ride with us to the protest. We drove on slowly for a short distance
and when we came to a complete stop, the guy in the white jumped off, came next
to Jeff’s window and said he was going to help us. Next he directed Jeff to
turn into the oncoming lane and for more than half a mile we zapped past a long
line of vehicles all waiting to move on.
Suddenly our lane had traffic in it and when we slowed down, the man in
white cleared an opening in the standing traffic and directed Jeff to pull in.
Once again he made us go in the left lane and we passed another line of
standing cars and trucks. Still standing on the back bumper he motioned Jeff to
stop and he guided us through the line of waiting traffic onto a small gravel
trail that led us away from the busy road. Soon we were completely surrounded by
banana plantations and had no idea where we were. The thought crossed my mind that we
might end up getting robbed but I was more intrigued about what was going on
then to worry about that. About ten minutes
later and after making a lot of turns we ended up at the main road again but now on the other side of all the
trouble, at least that is what it seemed. Just at that very moment two guys on
a motorcycle blocked our way and started cursing and screaming at Jeff who they
said had been passing them too close. They turned nasty real fast and it looked
like they were picking a fight. In that instance our guy in white stood all of
a sudden next to these two upset fellows. It seemed he huffed up and in a
lightning fast movement he grabbed the ear of one of them, twisted and yanked
it and made the guy instantly change his attitude. Clearly he was in charge.
Now the two motor guys were docile like lambs and quickly left the scene. When
we turned on the main highway our hero jumped off, said goodbye and smiled when
Jeff put an unexpected tip in his hand. He had not asked for anything! On we went with Red
guy still guarding our back. He stayed on the bumper for the next 20 minutes
until we had passed all possible trouble spots. Once we turned on a local road
leading to our destination for the night, he simply jumped off and disappeared.
Two rows in front of me I hear some people telling how scared
they had been yesterday, in the same place, when a crowd was beating on their car and windows. Wow!
What exactly did happen? We sure had been protected from something that could
have been frightful. Angels?
Tuesday, December 30, 2014
Never Alone
Being in any Haitian church on a
Sunday requires a lot of patience from those of us who like short and
to-the-point services. I always try to avoid the first hour or so, when the
Sunday school part takes place. Sunday school is the time during which
memorization of Bible verses is done, verses that so many of the Haitian
Christians have readily available at any occasion that calls for it.
In my youth, memorization was a
part of our Sunday night routine. It was a time when my siblings and I had to
memorize Psalms that had to be recited in school, the next morning during the
first hour of class. Each student had to stand up at their desk and spout
out the stanza, that our teacher had selected from our hymn book for that week.
We were graded by how good we did it. It was quite an experience, I must say,
because we went to a poor inner city school where many of the kids used God’s
name more to curse than in any other way. Up until the moment that it was my
turn, I would be nervous, anxiously waiting.
Once I was done, I would, in a more relaxed way, enjoy, the occasional
hilarious, butchering of the lyrics by kids that had no clue of their meaning.
Anyways, in later years, I did not
spend much time trying to learn Bible verses by heart. Early on in Haiti, I was
once amazed to listen to a ten-year old blind boy, who, according to the leader
of the church, had memorized the entire New Testament and all of the Psalms.
The boy was teaching the other children the verses in one of our feeding
centers. Although I often wished that I had that ability, I never put any
effort in it.
On a Friday just recently, I woke
up early with a strange urge to read Psalm 23; for those of you less familiar
with that, it is the well known “the Lord is my Shepherd” Psalm. Not only did I
read it, but it felt like I had to memorize it. And although I did not quite
understand where this feeling came from, I did it. I even studied some websites
explaining the use of phrases like “the valley of the shadow of death,” which
are not exactly terms that we, in modern times, use a lot. The consensus was
that it meant something like a very bad place or time in our lives. When I was
done, I knew it by heart.
At seven thirty that morning, after
breakfast, I continued to work on the project I was doing for a couple of
friends at their house. Three hours later, I fell off of a ladder, fracturing
one of my vertebrae. In that split second when visions of being paralyzed in a
wheelchair flashed before me, I realized that I was powerless to change the
outcome and waited for the impact with the ground. Then I understood!
“Even when I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me.”
Even when I write this I am still recovering, and it looks
like I will be alright, but I wanted you to be witness of the strange and
wonderful promise in these words. I am never alone.
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
Miranda
Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is
this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep
oneself from being polluted by the world. James 1:27
"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did
for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.' Matthew25:40
Never before did I feel
God’s hand in my life stronger than that day in February 1996. This story is the
heart of my book.
Three years earlier papa had
passed away. One of the anchors in my life was gone! But I was not very sad.
That may sound strange but the day before he died, he told me that he was so
ready to go and I knew it was the truth. Hanging on longer would not have made
any sense. We both knew where he was going and that was a great comfort. A year
later my mother followed. Her life seemed so pointless without him. She was
just waiting to go too. I travelled to Holland to visit her after she had a
major stroke. She was completely out of touch with the world except for this
little squeeze in my finger, just once, when I said goodbye to her. No last
words, but I knew she wanted so much to be with papa.
A few months later, my only
brother, Piet called me and told me this would be his last Christmas. He had
had a bout with colon cancer and it seemed he got better but it came back with
a vengeance. It was as if my heart froze in my chest. He had a family with four
young children. Piet and I were so close. Would this dying streak ever end?
God, why? Why? I prayed and prayed and I trusted He would heal him. I went up
to the altar in a healing service on behalf of him and then I prayed more but just
a year later Piet lost his fight too and left us. This time I did not see God’s
wisdom, I was disillusioned and full of doubt. I didn’t get it.
Then came the day we buried
him. The day that we found ourselves walking behind the hearse from the church to
the cemetery, holding the hands of his little ones together with what seemed
the entire village. This made no sense.
In the evening we gathered
at my sister’s restaurant. Life goes on. Over a meal we talked about our lives that
we were living so far apart from each other, on different sides of the ocean. My
sister, Sient, asked me about the children in Haiti. She loved children so much
and she always supported our work. We, my wife, two of our daughters and I had
just come back from a visit to Haiti. While there I had been faced with a difficult
question to do something for the orphans in the area. At the time I had not
been able to give an answer and now I shared this with my sister and said it
would be nice if one day we could build an orphanage. But even though she
nodded in agreement I knew it was not likely to ever happen.
When I was leaving my
sister’s place, she walked me to the door. It was past closing time and there
were no guests left. We said our goodbyes and I noticed that she fumbled an
envelope in my coat pocket. When I asked her what it was she just said “It’s
ok, that’s for your work in Haiti”. That was just like her, few words but all
deeds.
Sitting on the edge of my
bed that night, I remembered and pulled the envelope out of my pocket. A little
yellow note stuck to it read “For the orphanage, I think it’s a good idea, you
should do it!” Inside there was a wad of Dutch guilder bills, the equivalent of
thirty-two hundred dollars. My head was
spinning. This was incredible. From what I knew, this might suffice to buy a
piece of land large enough for an orphanage and gardens. My mind was reeling.
Although I did not realize it yet on that sad day, God had put a new purpose, a
new thing to live for, in my life. But at the time that was not so clear.
As soon as I got back home
I called my friend Mark to tell him what had happened. We started to make plans. A good friend was a full-time
missionary in Haiti and I wrote him to ask if he knew of any suitable land for
an orphanage that was for sale. Within weeks I received a wonderful response. Charlie had wanted to start a farm for orphan
boys in Haiti to teach them better ways to do agriculture. For this purpose he had
purchased a very nice piece of land covered with fruit trees. I read on and it
got even better; there were several small buildings on the land that could be of
use to start the orphanage. Sadly enough he was not able to carry out his plans
because he was to be transferred to Kenya, but my letter had been a godsend.
Charlie had already made some payments and now he was offering us to take over
the land if we were willing to pay off the remainder he owed on it. It was
almost too good to be true. I hastened to write him that we were interested and
to ask how much was still owed to the seller. A little over a week later he
gave me a call. He said “Hein I need an answer because I need to leave to
Kenya”. What he said after that stunned me. He still owed thirty-two hundred
dollars and if we paid it the land was ours. Wow! God had to be in this, what could stop us
now! The path became visible!
One a Tuesday in February, Mark,
Robert our pastor, and I got on a DC-3. We flew to Cap Haitien the second
largest city of Haiti. From there it would take a rough, four hour long road
trip in the back of a dump truck to cover the forty-nine miles to Bohoc, a
small village in the Central Plateau. The next day we were scheduled to sign
the contract and transfer the title of the land. I hoped for a chance to talk
things over with some of our missionary friends before all that would take
place. When we exited the airplane, I was glad to spot them on the outside of
the chain link fence that surrounded the airport. Quickly I walked up to them much to the dismay
of an official who started yelling at me. We talked briefly but I found out
that we would not see them until Saturday night as they were on the way to the
capitol for important business. They had to go now and there was no more time
to talk.
We made the exhausting trip
without problems. The next day we travelled back almost halfway along the same road
to meet with the attorney. We signed the papers, and now were the proud owners
of the land for the future orphanage. My excitement knew no bounds. What a privilege to be able to do something so
great for these poor children of Haiti. I was elated. That night sleep did not
come easy because of all the plans racing through my mind.
Early on Thursday we joined
the work crew that we hired to widen the path that ran from the property to the
main road. In awe I watched a bare foot Haitian cut down a sizeable tree with a
razor sharp axe. He didn’t miss a lick and soon the tree fell to the ground.
Haitians are such strong and skilled workers and it is a delight to work
alongside of them. By Friday others had finished digging the trenches for the
kitchen and storage room foundations. More footings would follow soon for the
dorms. This was so awesome, no red tape!
Things were moving right along and my enthusiasm grew by the hour. I
pushed away the thought that we had to leave in four days. I wanted to stay so
bad to see all of the construction being finished. That was however not an
option and besides there were still many other things to be done before the
place was ready for the first orphans. We had arranged to leave all this in the
hands of our Haitian friends under the leadership of Paulius Lucien who we
hired for this job. This is how we
wanted it to be, Haitians working on their own problems with a little help from
us.
Late that Saturday evening
our friends arrived after an all day truck ride from Port au Prince. They were
worn out but nevertheless asked us to come over for a short while to share our
plans. We headed to their house and told them all that we had been doing that
week and all the plans we had for the orphanage construction. I had expected
them to be exited for us but in the middle of my story things suddenly turned
sour. Barbara got a worried look on her face and asked me straight forward with
whom we had been working on this project. When I mentioned that it was the
magistrate, a sort of mayor, she did not seem to like that answer. Her response
made me upset as she went on to say that there was a big problem. I asked her
why but she did not answer me. She told us she had promised to keep certain
things confidential and was not at freedom to share any more with us. We had
come to a dead end. Our conversation was finished. If we were going to be left in
the dark I had no desire to stay in their house anymore and I got up and left
with Mark and Robert following. My excitement was gone and a dark cloud
positioned itself in my mind. Was I waking from a dream? Had reality caught up
with me? There was apparently a big thing that I had overlooked and that was
about to cause trouble. I felt guilty that I dragged Mark into this and even
more that I had all the locals so worked up over the prospect of an orphanage.
It was maddening not to know what was going on and I felt stupid. Why had I jumped
the gun on this project? Should I have spent more time planning? I didn’t know
and I felt sick to my stomach. I looked in despair to my friends for answers. They
had none. A long sleepless night followed and things got from bad to worse in
my mind. The darkness from my brother’s death was back.
Sunday morning brought no
new insights. More than the night before it felt that I had been wasting my time
and my sister’s money. I wanted to get out of Haiti and get this nightmare behind
me but I knew that was not possible at least not until Tuesday. But was that really
an option? Turmoil ruled my heart to the point of making me physically sick.
We had been invited to have
breakfast with another missionary couple who had just finished their first year
in Haiti. It had been a difficult year and both of them had been plagued with
disease and discouraging events. Our conversation over breakfast was not very
uplifting and fueled my negative feelings even more and I lost whatever
motivation I had left.
It was time for church but
I really had no desire going there this morning. Mark and Robert started to
walk along the dusty road and reluctantly and more out of habit, I was
following at a distance. Loneliness and
sadness filled my heart and if it had been possible I would have flown back
home to never return. Consumed by such thoughts I walked by myself, far behind
Mark and Robert.
Although it was nothing special, my attention
was drawn to something that happened on the road before me. A little girl came from
one of the little houses along the road. She was dressed in a torn up, stained
dress and walked up alongside Mark while taking his hand. She walked a few
steps beside with him but then let go. Now she moved to the other side where
Robert was walking. She took his hand and walked a few steps with him. Something
seemed different however. It was as if she was looking for someone. She let go
of Robert’s hand and then waited in the middle of the road until I had caught
up with her. What happened next left my heart forever in Haiti. I reached out
my hand expecting that she would walk with me too but instead she blocked my
way and wrapped both of her arms around my legs. She turned her little face up
and I looked down into a pair of dark eyes I will never be able to describe
other than the eyes of Jesus, and then I broke down in tears. All of my pain
and frustration came out and I stood there crying. The embrace of the little
arms became stronger trying to comfort me and my tears now flowed freely. I
don’t know how long we stood there but I noticed that some people had stopped
to watch us and somewhat embarrassed I carefully loosened her grip on me and
took her hand. I did not want her to go away as strangely I felt so comforted
by her and asked her if she would like to come to church with me. For just a
fleeting moment I thought about first asking her mother who would not know
where she had gone but decided that in Haiti this was no big deal and turned
onto the path leading to the church entrance.
The church was packed with
singing people and there was only one small spot left on the bench closest to
the door. As soon as I sat down the little girl climbed in my lap and rested
her head against my chest. My tears were back and I was relieved that I sat in
the back where no one would see me cry. The little girl wiped the tears from my
face only to make room for new ones. I felt so sad and she did not know what
was in my heart. Or did she? I noticed Mark and Robert look at me and then I realized
that Barbara, the friend who had made me so upset the night before, was sitting
three rows in front of me. Just at that
moment she turned around and smiled at me. She was saying something but the
singing was too loud to hear. However the words forming on her lips I will
never forget. “She’s one of your children”.
The eyes of my heart were
opened.
Sitting in my lap was a
little orphan girl that God had sent to me.
He did not want me to give up and He knew the only thing that could stop
me was a little child.
Oh, the emotions of that
moment…
Before I totally realized
what had happened, the child slid of my lap and dashed to Barbara to give her a
big hug. My anger towards Barb melted away. Next a deacon shoed the little girl
out of the aisle and she slipped out of the church in the back.
I do not remember anything other than that I
cried during most of the service. After church we got together and I asked
everyone if they had understood what happened there this morning and all of
them were speechless and in awe. Barbara’s words were “Hein, that was the Lord
God speaking to you”
I asked Pauluis to go look
for Miranda, as I found out that that was her name. Everyone knew her. She was
a homeless orphan staying here, then there just for a day or for a little bit
of food. I wanted her to be our first orphan and asked Pauluis to arrange for
her care while the construction was underway which he gladly promised to do.
In the afternoon, Barbara, who
now had asked permission to speak about the problem told us that there was
another initiative to build an orphanage with money they had donated. She
thought that would create a conflict of interests. We did not see one. A real
issue never existed, but it surely put me to the test and shook me to the core.
And what happened with Miranda?
People were sent out to search for her but no
one could ever find her. She was no longer around. In Hinche , the provincial
capital they found out that she had died some time before!
I struggled with this for
many years and recently when I told this story in church to our orphans, I
again shared my confusion with Pauluis. He was very clear about it. Miranda had
died before I saw her on the road…
One day I will know for
sure but it will not change the miracle of meeting her and the change it made
in my heart. Now, eighteen years later, I realize that God gave me a new life
that same day I said goodbye to my only brother. His ways are wonderful and
amazing!
Copyright © 2014 by Hein
Vingerling
Friday, September 13, 2013
A Wonderful Day
Stuck deep in the mud! No way to get it out by itself. I was
eying a couple of oxen that squeezed by the truck but was told it they would not be of any help without having their yoke. The owner was just moving them and disappeared
as quickly as he came. A few onlookers fast became a crowd and as always there
were more opinions than people. We tried a few suggestions but the truck stayed
stuck. We always carry some straps with us and I asked all to line up and pull
together as in tug of war. It took some convincing but a bunch of them finally
grabbed the strap which we attached to the truck. Slowly and with a lot of
moaning the truck moved forward and out of the deep rut. A shout of victory
erupted! We had beaten the mud and confirmed that Haitians can do great things
together! On we went.
Just a few minutes further, the road became too steep to
drive. Now an exhausting hike in the hot sun followed and before long the
Haitian women in our group decided to stay back in the shade of a tree. Half an
hour later I had to give up as well. I was sweating up a storm and it was just too hot for me to continue. Mark, Jeff and
Fonbwen, the leader of the feeding center, went on. The destination: a plot of
land with a hundred bananas trees we donated and that had been planted in an
effort to encourage the local families. We needed to see how things were taking
shape. Since last November we had been
talking with the leaders and made plans to join forces to see if we could
improve the food situation around the centers. Parents would participate by
bringing in water for the banana trees whenever they brought in their kids for
a meal. The leaders would provide the land and work it. Finally the day had come to see how it was taking form. Earlier that morning
we had paid a visit to another feeding center. Their bananas looked wonderful!
The 78 year old man who was working the garden had shared his joy over this new
idea! He just loved it. But now I would not be able to see this garden.
Disappointed I started following a local man who walked to his nearby
house and began a conversation with him. He opened the gate to his yard and
invited me to come in. A nice big mango tree offered some shade. Although I was
just trying to cool off a bit by standing under the tree, a woman quickly came
out the house with a chair and urged me to sit down. The customary greeting
took place and several persons popped out of the house to see the stranger.
Soon we were involved in a lively conversation about the challenges of living
in their area! A tall man, dressed in a ball cap and a nylon jacket, entered
the yard. He carried a large machete, looked upset in my direction and was
quick to share with those present that he did not like white people. What was I
doing here? My new friends took up for
me. It was okay they said, I was a good “blan”, the term used all over Haiti
for white people. When I asked him how he was doing his attitude slowly began
to change and he calmed down. Looking around me I had noticed that the people
were as poor as everyone else. Just a simple stick and mud house, no more than 15
by 12 feet, and it probably was home to at least seven or eight people. A large
wooden mortar and pestle to pound corn and a few rickety homemade chairs of
which she had given me the best one with the least holes. That was the extent of
their possessions. The conversation went on and soon it became clear to me that
they would like to see a mission doctor come to their community. They could not
afford to go to the hospital in the nearest city, something I had been painfully
aware of for many years. Knowing that a medical team was about to come with me
in October, I promised that we would come to the feeding center so they would
have a chance to see a doctor. Smiles came all over their faces even the big
guy cracked a grin! It felt so comfortable with them.
Right at that time, a girl maybe 18 years old, came through
the gate and without hesitating walked up to me. With a bright smile, she stuck
out her hand and greeted me. Then she bowed down and kissed me on the cheek. I
was completely surprised. What a welcome to a total stranger! These people may
have been very poor but oh, how rich in love they were. I started to realize that
ending up in that yard was maybe not a coincidence. What a joy it would be to
come back in a few weeks and take care of their sick. What an example of love I
had run into, a treasure hidden deep in the mountains of rural Haiti. What a wonderful day!
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